Nil

I think today is wasted... wasted

totally no mood.. things have developed to the situation that puts me at a damn pessimistic stage... symptoms are showing and they are not good signs... Things seems to be back again... I realise I still cannot change that part of myself... In fact, it has just turned for the worse it seems...

Pathetic lame idiot....

Me

Seriously, I never thought I got a chance, it has always been wishful thinking on my part... Low confidence piece of shit...

The sense of foreboding and ominous feeling is so strong that I feel that the sky can just fall down anytime... damn... somethings really should have been left unsaid.. sometimes i am too quick to trust..

I just have a simple wish... I just hope things can be simpler...

Changes

Things are changing... dun seem to be for the better...

changes are suppose to be for the better but it would be extremely frustrating that things change not the way you want them to... Am i too greedy, or that it is a blessing in disguise??? I hope is the latter...

So does my mood...

xyz

Life Goes On - Leann Rimes

Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...

You sucked me in and played my mind
Just like a toy you would crank and wind
Baby, I would give til you wore it out
You left me lying in a pool of doubt
If you're still thinkin' you're the daddy mac
You should've known better but you didn't and I can't go back

Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back

Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...

Wish I knew then what I know now
You held all the cards and sold me out
Baby, shame on you if you fooled me once,
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back

Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back

Na na na na na life goes on, na na na na na made me strong
Got a feeling and I can't go back
Life goes on (and it's only gonna make me strong)
Life goes on and on and on

Shame on you if you fooled me once,
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back

Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back

Na na na na na life goes on, na na na na na made me strong
Whoa, yeah
Got a feeling and I can't go back...
(No, can't go back... No Yeah...
I got to go now, moving on... No time to back to make me strong
Got a feeling and I can't go back
No, can't go back... No Yeah...)

忍

我真的觉得我的忍功一流。。。 哈哈哈

XYZ
卖瓜自卖自夸。。。 哈哈

XYZ

A term coined by the CSC members 2 years ago, to describe someone talking some "alien" language and is confusing others by what he/she says...

Hmmm... I have to agree that sometimes that I really have the tendency to not answer the question asked... but I have to say that sometimes, it is really the people who do not understand what I am trying to say... I am not really good at putting out my words to others. Take for example today, while i commented on something and I am shot down like I am talking some gibberish... sianz... not the first time already!!!! Maybe I tend to look at things differently from other peoples ba.. 一言难尽...

I am not angry or anything, just wanted to voice myself out, since most of the time, what I said is not regarded or not even being noted... I will still be the XYZ I am... And well, about not to be so low self-confidence, I guess that still take time to change... LOL

And CSC seems to be changing... I do not understand some stuff anymore... things change, people change... And it keeps me thinking abt what motives people have in mind when they are doing certain stuff... It makes things so untrustable, so taxing as it keeps thinking (cuz I am someone who thinks alot... really alot... *quite hard to kick this habit thou...)

I think I have to learn how to filter what is going thru my mind... I felt some are really redundant thoughts...

XYZ

Black

Today, I woke up and saw CHARCOAL.....







in the mirror

XYZ
HAHAHHAHA... going nuts

S-POP

Haiz... dunno why i so excited abt the S-POP recording that was shown ytd... I was still talking to my friends abt it... then i suddenly realise that it was that fateful day that my grandma passed away... haiz...

XYZ